Thursday, December 14, 2017


It's funny how we humans are so fractured, how we are governed by our thoughts and emotions. What are these emotions we can't see, feel or sense, they are not made out of matter or have any real structure at all. Yet, we can clearly say that most of us are governed by them.
Today is Thursday, I lay here in bed writing my thought and feelings, reporting my life, a life that has had so many emotions which I have not been able to control. What is living all about? What is real and what is false, what matters what does not? So many questions, not enough answers.

Today is back and chest day at the gym, I love working out my upper body, it gives me a sense of power. Have I  mentioned that one of my needs in life is to gain power? People who are powerless as I was as a child as I  watched my drunken father beat my mother, having an old man fondled my young body as I was powerless,  these were one of the many events in my life that disempowered me and made me feel helpless, have been my premise for my quest for power.
Are these emotions so important that they shape every sense of our messed up lives? I'm finding this blog to be empowering helping me reflect and possibly empowering someone else in the process.

I can't believe I'm as old as I am, what have I done with my life? How has gender screwed my existence as it has? Is it normal to be angry? Where does that emotion come from? Well anyway, I  won't dig into this one too much, let's just say I have lots of inner work to do and self-reflection to embark on.

I find myself being governed by expectations, if my expectations are not met I get disillusioned, is this normal? Everything has to be a certain way, a certain pattern or else I lose interest. Is this part of my Asbergers? Or is this a genetic trait I inherited from my mother? A woman who was so difficult to please, I spent my entire life trying to please her but couldn't.

Has this been my quest to find the perfect woman? Why I have had such difficulties finding peace with loved ones? Anyways I must work on self that is the only thing I can control or change is myself. I am the only thing I can make close to perfect.
I have tried to control or create perfection in others and always came out short or disappointed. What does this all mean? I hope it means I am creating awareness and that I'm now finally growing or self-understanding.

My physical status today is good, I'm stronger at the gym, lifting heavier, very sore though. No pain no gain so I continue the quest to build the perfect physique. Strong arms and shoulders, a big and puffed up chest, yes that's what I want. No one could break the armor that I shall build.

I feel the window of time I allowed my weak side to enter, stole from me. I must rebuild what she took. She was always giving to others, she was weak and I will have none of that. Weakness is not allowed, it destroys and allows others to take advantage. I must regain and rebuild the fort.

Till next time

Wednesday, December 13, 2017

Finding Me

Trying to reconcile with what I've done to myself, the confusion and state of mind I've placed myself in for the past 3 years is going to take work and patience.

I was a fully developed person who became fragmented for all the wrong reasons. I can't help but want to invert and just run away from it all at times, the advocacy the people that created the turmoil in the first place, repair is definetly in the making.

I am a strong minded and focused individual, I need to engage in projects and be goal oriented. My health has always been a priority, well in my adult years anyway.

My peace of mind has been compromised and I allowed outside influences to dictate my wellbeing. For now my focus will be to return to a peaceful place, a place were I can continue to evolve as a masculine expression without allowing the politics and needs of others to set in.

Today is Wednesday, I find my workouts are going well, been researching more regarding natural muscle building which is important for my physical and mental health. I don't like to feel vulnerable, and I have allowed myself to be weak.

The time to restore and to build is now, I will get back to who I am, Mark Angelo the fierce male presence whom no one can break or bring down. The Phoenix is rising once again.

I found a new supplement while looking for information on ginseng, its called Suma root.  I will report more on it as I take it and report on my progress. I know I may sound selfish right now, but I need this on order to heal and return to me.

Mind, body and spirit are important components that need attention a d balance. Its okay to be focused on self, especially when self was abandoned and broken. I will return stronger than ever.

Till next time

Tuesday, December 12, 2017

The Mind

Many people take emotions for granted and do not realize the importance of thought and visualization. For the past 15 years I have been on hormonal replacement, testosterone to be exact. I have no ovaries or a uterus, and had my breast removed all things I did to feel in alignment with my gender identity.

Taking hormones for such an extended period of time can be dangetous, in fact it is correlated with cancer and heart disease.

I have decided to use herbs and natural products for my hormone needs and to maintain my manly appearance which is important for me. Health is very important and part of my lifestyle. I am a vegan and live a mindful life. 

Visualization plays an important factor in how one looks and feels.  I make it a point to give myself positive feedback on a daily basis, visualize my body how I want it to look like and incorporate a healthy lifestyle along with it.

Improvements I can make is to drink more water and get to bed earlier, being less occupied with what others think or need, these are my down falls and where I need improvement on.

Today is Tuesday, Lynna has begun breast pumping to increase her breast size, she is on Fenugreek starting with 620 mg daily to increase to 2 pills a day after our yearly New years fast. We are excited to see what the new year brings and how finally we can get on with our lives.

The mind is where it all begins and how we as humans can make great changes.

My strength at the gym has improved, all heart and mind. Went from 160 press to 190 lbs, lifting heavier through out. This week we will be focusing on hitting chest and back 2 times a week, as well as legs, leaving shoulder, bicep and triceps the smaller muscles once a week. Our cardio regimen is dancing in our apartment for around one hour. We have added organic peanuts, almonds, and pumpkin seeds to our regimen, as well as 2 shakes a day, while cutting down our portions.

Natural regimens that work with your body not against it is where it is at.

Till next time

Monday, December 11, 2017

Winter Has Arrived

I am an Islander and love the warm weather, I have learned as I become exposed to fridged weather to deal with the cold, but can't say I am a big fan. I do love the change of seasons and I do love the feel in the air and such, but I will say that summers are my favorite.

Today is Monday morning, we had an amazing weekend, went Christmas shopping, watched a Christmas Choir production, went out dancing and had a great time. I love spending time with my Lynna, she is an incredible woman, and I am excited to see her grow into who she truly is now that she has given herself permission to be happy in who she is. I know many don't get the gender identity thing, and that's okay you don't have to, it's hard to understand since we live in such a black and white world, and people are not being given the chance to enjoy their essence without being ridiculed or hurt.

Living, loving and laughing that is what we intend to do, living our truth, and not being apologetic about it either. It has taken us quite the journey to figure things out, my Lynna deserves happiness as do I, we are both a byproduct of religious upbringing, cultural implantation, and being people pleasures, it is time for us to break free from it all and just live, live our lives as husband and wife that we are, life is good indeed.

Getting ready to go to the gym, our focus is to get into the best physical and mental shape in our lives. I plan on putting on lots of naturally induced muscle while making my wife leaner and hotter than she already is.  We want to be a beacon of light and love for others, helping everyone reach their ultimate potential while being totally true to themselves.

Last nights dinner was amazing, we made a fusion type Mexican Dish with organic blue corn tortilla, Mexican rice made with split peas, corn, and all sorts of organic goodies. Also made Guacamole with organic avocado, zucchini, corn, garlic, onions, tomatoes, lime everything is organic and GMO-free. We made dessert as well, all organic and natural ingredients ranging from organic oats, cocoa, coconut flakes, almonds, peanut butter, stevia, and dates. Life is good and healthy and full of love as it should be.

Till Next Time

Morning After

Dehydration leads to headaches, dizziness and a feeling of emptiness throughout. It's Sunday morning and I have a bit of a hang over, after date night, at the Toad, our loDehydration leads to headaches, dizziness and a feeling of emptiness throughout. It's Sunday morning and I have a bit of a hang over, after date night, at the Toad, our local hangout last might. We however did enjoy dancing and having a few hard ciders which did make me a bit drunk, but at the moment it seemed like a great idea and did make dancing more pleasurable, but this morning not so much. I have become a light wait in my old age 2 beers and I'm toast, lol.

Today we plan on heading out to watch a Christmas concert, the weather has been rather cold as of late here in our little town of Silver City New Mexico, making it feel Christmassy and festive.

We went out shopping yesterday and got ourselves a few Christmas gifts and are enjoying the holiday feel enormously. Life has taken a wonderful twist and feel after sorrendering to what is.

It will be 3 years since Lynna and I met on January 1st 2015 in El Paso Texas in the ICU ward after her terrible car accident, falling off a mountain pass as she was driving to meet me. Fast forward and now we are as close as ever having put so many challenges behind us and we are now finally enjoying our life. So many lessons and obstacles were placed before us but finally we have arrived.

The plan is to strive for greater health both physically and emotionally, making 2018 a stellar year. We are excited and so looking forward to what lies ahead, we deserve happiness and to enjoy each other and our love.

Love has never felt this good, thecal hangout last might. We however did enjoy dancing and having a few hard ciders which did make me a bit drunk,  but at the moment it seemed like a great idea and did make dancing more pleasurable, but this morning not so much. I have become a light wait in my old age 2 beers and I'm toast, lol.

Today we plan on heading out to watch a Christmas concert, the weather has been rather cold as of late here in our little town of Silver City New Mexico, making it feel Christmassy and festive. 

We went out shopping yesterday and got ourselves a few Christmas gifts and are enjoying the  holiday feel enormously. Life has taken a wonderful twist and feel after sorrendering to what is.

It will be 3 years since Lynna and I met on January 1st 2015 in El Paso Texas in the ICU ward after her terrible car accident, falling off a mountain pass as she was driving to meet me. Fast forward and now we are as close as ever having put so many challenges behind us and we are now finally enjoying our life. So many lessons and obstacles were placed before us but finally we have arrived.

The plan is to strive for greater health both physically and emotionally, making 2018 a stellar year. We are excited and so looking forward to what lies ahead, we deserve happiness and to enjoy each other and our love.

Love has never felt this good, the key to happiness is to flow with the river not against it.

Till next time...

Incredible Life

Finding ways to improve one’s life is basically the sole purpose many of us base our lives from. Physical and mental health seems to be on top of the list, money is nothing without love nor health.

Once you become in tune with your purpose and work through all of your challenges, then living becomes easy.

Waking up thankful and grateful is an important factor in your every waking moment. Knowing who you are, how you feel and what you are all about is key. Make your intentions known, verbalize them and find peace with it.
Yesterday I cut my hair, and for the first time in a long time, I am finding the need to care about my physical appearance. I had lost touch with wanting to take pride in my look and now that I have reconnected with my masculine self, I want to feel and look my best.

Today is Saturday, December 9th, I begin my natural hormonal balance protocol with 5 mg of DHEA once a day, 620 mg of Fenugreek first once a day then I will increase it to twice daily.  I have increased my workout intensity and plan on putting on 10 pounds of muscle while losing 5 pounds of fat. Currently, I weigh 128 pounds.

My food intake will increase by 500 calories of added nuts and seeds and I will remove all hidden oils that come in processed healthy products. Please beware that even healthy foods are loaded with organic expelled oils that are actually toxins. Oils extraction is not a healthy practice just a business model and your bodies are suffering from it. Eat your foods whole and in their natural state.

We will be going to find Lynna a pair of earrings today, check out new wedding rings, the ones we have do not fit our expression and we want to give ourselves this as a way to show our renewed state of mind.

Tattoos are in the works, piercings, things that would have normally been a taboo for her are now welcomed and embraced. I will encourage Lynna to write about these things and to share her feelings.

We will make videos talking about our natural journey and peace bound lifestyle.

Enjoy your day, it may be your last.

Until next time

Thursday, December 07, 2017

Being Me

5 months hormone free vegan 53 y/o

Having been off Testosterone for the past 5 months I can't help but wonder if I am one of the few humans who after having had a full hysterectomy and having been on HRT, testosterone to be exact, for over 15 years who is leading the way to natural living.

I am a vegan, exercise 5 days a week, and have come to learn that my personality cannot be changed or alter because of other peoples needs and wants. I am a masculine expressive human, transitioned in 2003 and have been living as a "man" since then, well with a few hiccups since being with Lynna my wife for the past 3 years. We have dealt with lots of issues stemming from her not having family support and her religious upbringing and programming, which a lot of it stems from her own thinking, after all, it is up to us to live our lives in our comfort, no validation needed from others as she has finally learned.

I continue to believe that transition needs to be based on an inner core and personality expression, that medicalization and alteration of your body does not make you who you are, you are who you are from within and learning how to tap into to that is healthy and will relieve the pain we have had to go throughout our lives.  Dysphoria can only be dealt with via getting to know your true self. I plan to write about my journey and show people that natural transitioning can be done and is the way to fight off depression and lack of self-acceptance.

I feel more in tune with myself since stopping T, since realizing that I am a masculine expressing human, who although born biologically a female, my essence is all male, and I do not have to apologize to anyone for being me.  Since being with Lynna I have questioned my identity on several occasion due to the circumstances that were presented but now that we have got all that out of the way our focus is to grow as a couple, continue to lead a healthy lifestyle, adding the emotional and mental component of it, and focusing on the health and wellness of ourselves and our planet.

Please stay tuned for further journaling as I continue my life as Mark Angelo Cummings

The Cummings

Monday, October 23, 2017

Forced Sexuality And Trans Acceptance

Okay, I believe that it is important to allow society to express their views on certain topics and they should have the right to accept or decline certain views, lifestyles, and identities. Although no one should be cruel, hateful, or harmful to anyone, the more a group pushes and forces others to accept them, the more push back and decline they are going to receive.

It is one thing to want to express on the outside on how you feel on the inside, however, it's another to force everyone to validate your identity and expect others to see you as the gender you feel and wish to be. I am guilty of this, for I too wanted to force everyone to see me as the "man" I thought I was, clearly 15 years later and attempting to live the lie, today I can strongly say, that I was misled by a narrative that is false and dangerous. I am a woman, have always been and will always be. I find it quite amusing that most trans individuals really fall for the lie and think they are the gender they transition to. This is where I find a massive problem with, that the trans narrative and the professionals that work with these individuals tell them a lie, and are being deceitful about the whole process. No man can ever be a woman, nor a woman a man, that is just biologically impossible, and frankly very irresponsible to tell someone they can.

Take a look at this video, the trans advocates made quite the fuss regarding the normal reaction to be had when someone gets deceived by a man, pretending to be a woman. Mind you there was no violence involved, and violence should never be condoned, by a normal visceral reaction cannot be contained. For those of you who watched The Crying Game, in the movie when the character of the film finds out that the "woman" he fell for was actually a man, he basically had the same reaction you will see on this video.

I wanted to add, I have been having a discussion on one of a well-known porn star who is a transman called Buck Angel. On his page, he showed discontent when one of his co-workers in the business, Jenna Jameson, was not too happy with the latest Playboy front cover person and had a few things to say about it. I chimed in and expressed my opinion that people are entitled to not accept the trans narrative, and as much as trans people want acceptance and compassion, they need to learn to give it back in return.  Needless to say, I was not very popular with the trans crowd and they, of course, had a few things to say to me. I went digging and found exactly what I have been saying regarding the reason most people transition, in one of a particular trans person's FB page, who claims transition has saved their life and they are better off for it today. I claim BS, that no one is better off, and the only reason they do what they do is to run away from the shame they lived before. Usually the person identifies as a lesbian before transition, although they do not admit it, and the need for power is very evident in trans "men", trans women transition for validation, to run away from the responsibility of being a man, they do a Houdini, an escape act, and many well, in my opinion, see this as one big game and fetishistic behavior.  Although, lots of trans people are dealing with childhood traumas, to include, lack of acceptance for how they present, their personality basically, and since now this has become a thing, well people are being forced into a reparative or corrective therapy in the worse way. Gay is not acceptable for many families especially in the religious sector, so "changing" gender becomes the thing to do.

I don't care how many of them tell me I am wrong, the patterns are so evident and as much as they think that their story is different, there is basically a few patterns of the same behavior. Sexual molestation, trauma during childhood, a very effeminate man, or a very butchy female,  they see the transition as the greatest tool for escape, an alter ego is developed and the rest is history.  After years of transition, the person starts to hear their inner voice that whispers, imposter, and the battle begins. We are going to see massive regrets taking place and I hope the WPATH has a plan to deal with it all, and the numbers of lawsuits that will be rolling in will be colossal.

Anyways, I long for the day, that we can freely express our personalities without saying we are born wrong. I wish to see empowered masculine females unlike what I did, be proud of who they are and have society accept that there are many types of females. I pray that men who are sensitive and outside of the masculine box, learn to feel free to express themselves without thinking they should be a woman. This makes more sense to me than to lead the wounded to slaughter with this crazy and I mean crazy trans agenda.

Till Next Time

Friday, October 20, 2017

In A Nut Shell

Transgender Ideology is a very faulty ideology.  In actual fact, there is nothing wrong with one's gender, body, and most of all one's sex. The person claiming gender dysphoria is just a neurologically impaired individual with lots of childhood traumas, low self-esteem, and in the case of an MTF, their male characteristic brain sex is usually very much on target as seen in their typical behavior. Their inability to have compassion for others, a narcissistic personality, visuals ruling their brain, of what they think a female should look like, they miss the actual actions and behaviors of the female species. And yes I know not all females are alike, but there are certain characteristics that should be noted, to be female is beyond wardrobe and makeup, and trans women are missing the boat on this one. They are all about the looks, the makeup, the wigs, the clothing, they can't even be what they perceive as being a woman without actually putting on their getup.
It is as if another person comes to life, the alter ego that they develop takes a life of its own, but it is not a complete person, it lacks integrity, reasoning, and knowledge, it is as if one is getting a child without any life experience what so ever. If we take a closer look at trans people, we will see a very constant behavior across the board, escapism. These individuals are trying to escape a reality and create a fantasy, but a fantasy that cannot be totally fulfilled, because it is missing many parts, and it is shallow at best. Hence why they never find happiness, no matter what they do, they are always searching, feeling empty, alone, and lost, they are never satisfied with one single thing in life, and if they are a man wanting to be a woman which a person with a male brain cannot ever achieve, their constant search for more and the need for drama is on the top of their list, their misogynistic behavior gets in the way of even coming close to it.
Here is Thursday nights show where we discuss many of these issues:

Made By Nature?

The problem many of us face in this world is the lack of self-love and a super dose of low self-esteem. This is no surprise, nor is it a coincidence by any stretch of the word, it is all by design.  You see there are people responsible for creating a humanity that is "defected" and struggling to fit in. How many of you have heard of  Baphomet? Baphomet a term originally used to describe an idol or other deities that the Knights Templar were accused of worshipping and that subsequently was incorporated into the disparate occult and mystical traditions. It appeared as a term for a pagan idol in trial transcripts of the Inquisition of the Knights Templar in the early 14th century.  Baphomet is a humanoid figure with a goat’s head and embodies both genders, as it has the breast of a woman and is depicted as having both male and female organs. It is also referred to the Goat of Mendes, the Black goat or Judas goat. Matthew 25:31-34 gives us insight into why the use of a goat is symbolic and used in reference to those who live in opposition to Yahweh. Goats are defined by their selfish, stubborn, indignant and rebellious nature while sheep, who are used as symbolism for Saints are obedient and the opposite of a goat’s disposition.  Goats were even used in the Torah for the scapegoat.  There is a serious problem with a little boy wanting to dress up like a princess or worse, who believes that he should’ve actually been born a girl and vice versa there is something troublesome about a little girl who believes that she should’ve actually been male and not female as if God made a mistake.  Media subliminal usage is prolific in regard to this and should not be underestimated as a pervasive and profound influence.  

"The agenda is going strong, but at a deeper level, there’s more than just social transformation going on. This is about spiritual transformation, and the goal of preparing society to accept the Antichrist and the pagan religious system which will be part of the 666 Beast System, spoken of in the Bible. It’s just around the corner, so the indoctrination is proceeding at an increasingly rapid pace. It’s about Satan’s goal of destroying everything in creation as God originally made it, and especially the destruction of humanity created in God’s image. It’s occurring quickly because the time for his rise is almost upon us. Thankfully, his reign will be short-lived, as the Bible not only tells of this system’s rise but of its total destruction at the return of Christ." George Ryan
My gut feeling is that there is nothing natural about all that is going on in our world and that this trans agenda is fabricated by the powers to be. Look at the individuals that undergo this endeavor, self-harming, self-hating, easily influenced and easily disturbed, they become taken over are on the autistic spectrum and are in a tranz, pun intended and are all on the same train ride. All you have to do is peel the skin off this phenomenon, watch video after video, look into FB page after FB page, and you will see the same patterns no difference.  A "suppress" individual who has known since they were 3 to 5 years old, for others it starts after a traumatic event, later on in life, but the course of action is always the same as is the feelings demonstrated. They feel something was wrong with them, and they now want to alter their bodies, a cult programming to say the least. Most of these people are computer geeks, are into sci-fi, work in the video industry, and love to read and watch fantasy, alterations of gender-bending and such. The other spectrum is excessively feminine men, usually gay, who don't fit into societies typical gender box and feel they would fit into society if they demonstrated as female. Now don't get me wrong, I think self-expression is a wonderful thing, and I don't share the same sentiments as the uber Christians do, that one size fits all, but when it becomes medicalized and pathologized, then Houston we have a problem. It is important to self-express and not to fit into a box, but this agenda has just gone overboard and headed for a massive disastrous result.

The more I research and the more I see, the more I understand that this is a socially designed disorder and the medical community is just running with it. People are hurting for real, but gender is not the problem, gender is just something they can physically try to change, but we know how well that works. Healing needs to take place, healing due to childhood traumas, the lack of self-esteem, boredom, wanting more out of life and most of all escapism, that is a big one. The two types of Transsexuals in the MTF arena, the HSTS, and the Autogynepheliacs are very different conditions and Female to masculine individuals become power-driven, the need to see themselves as male and not women who are attracted to other women, or masculine females who are attracted to men. I am always so mesmerized by this whole gender dysphoria phenomenon and the lack of real information out there regarding these conditions.
The sad thing of all of this is that people's personalities are being seen as a pathology and being medicalized, instead of being celebrated for what it is. I hope things change and people need to accept who they are for real, not the fantasy version of what they have created in their heads and how they think things should be.

Till Next Time

Wrong Body Or Wrong Mind?

The typical Trans mentality and their famous line have always been "I was born in the wrong body", which to that I have this to say, impossible. The brain and the body are connected, they are not separate nor do they act against each other. When we are born we are born with a clean slate, connections need to be made and the wiring according to our navigation and negotiation of our environment and world becomes formed.  There are automatic and visual connections made, as well as tactile, emotional and sensory.  We are either rewarded or scorned by those around us as we learn to crawl, walk then run.  Who controls our brains? The brain works more like traffic than a car, no one is actually controlling it and this is all due to a complex procedure called emergence and it explains why all of these “specialized and localized” processes can give rise to what seems like a unified mind. Sub-atomic particles, atoms, molecules, cells, neurons, modules, the mind, and a collection of minds (a society) are all different levels of organization, with their own laws that cannot necessarily be predicted from the properties of the level below.

The unified mind we feel present emerges from the thousands of lower-level processes operating in parallel. Most of it is so automatic that we have no idea it's going on. (Not only does the mind work bottom-up but top-down processes also influence it. In other words, what you think influences what you see and hear.)
So our reactions to the world are reactionary, sensory information is fed into an explanatory module which Gazzaniga calls The Interpreter, and studying split-brain patients showed him that it resides in the left hemisphere of the brain. So because our actions seem to create a negative response to the world, we claim we are born wrong, when in fact we are not.  The interpreter is receiving data from the domains that monitor the visual system, the somatosensory system, the emotions, and cognitive representations. The interpreter is only as good as the information it receives. Lesions or malfunctions in any one of these domain-monitoring systems leads to an array of peculiar neurological conditions that involve the formation of either incomplete or delusional understandings about oneself, other individuals, objects, and the surrounding environment, manifesting in what appears to be bizarre behavior. It no longer seems bizarre, however, once you understand that such behaviors are the result of the interpreter getting no, or bad, information.

The story of the multi-modular mind and the Interpreter module shows us that the brain does not have a rational “central command station” — your mind is at the mercy of what it's fed. The Interpreter is constantly weaving a story of what's going on around us, applying causal explanations to the data it's being fed; doing the best job it can with what it's got.
This is generally useful: a few thousand generations of data has honed our modules to understand the world well enough to keep us surviving and thriving. The job of the brain is to pass on our genes. But that doesn't mean that it's always making optimal decisions in the modern world.
We must realize that our brain can be fooled; it can be tricked, played with, and we won't always realize it immediately. Our Interpreter will weave a plausible story — that's it's job.

So please stop the lies and the push for people to feel sorry for you, you were not born wrong, you are simply unable to cope with who you are, and who you are is nothing more than an entitled individual who thinks life owes you something, you need to learn to live life the way you were born as, accept it, embrace it, love yourself for who you are and stop pushing this theory on people.

Lies About Transition

Don't believe the lies you are told regarding the trans narrative, no one is born wrong, people just encounter situations while their brains are being developed and get stuck in certain level of development, a traumatized mind will develop abnormal behavior that can lead to personality and bipolar disorders, and an alter ego is developed hence the claim to being born wrong. These people genuinely believe this, and need help, but not the kind of help being provided by the medical community. They need to help these people realize that nothing is wrong with them, and they need to accept that they are different and that is okay.  No one transitions anywhere, they just take on a lifetime of drugs and procedures that do not make them into the opposite gender, they are just being sold a lie. Just like an anorexic or anybody with body dysmorphia looks in the mirror and sees something different, the trans person senses when they look in the mirror that they are someone else.

Depression What Is it Exactly?

We can’t watch television without being subjected to a slew of antidepressant medications, one of the many prescription drugs being advertised by big pharma today. Do you think it is a coincidence that most everyone you know is either depressed, anxious or suicidal, and by the way, suicidal seems to be one of the side effects from most of the latest big pharma concoction?
Let’s break down what depression actually is and how it affects us.  Our brain is a network of neurons, brain cells, and dendrites which are a short branched extension of a nerve cell, along which impulses received from other cells at synapses (gaps) which are transmitted to the cell body to create brain function. This highway or railroads that connect throughout this big mass of matter requires an optimal environment for healthy function. If we are not providing the ultimate nutritional source and healthy environment, we can’t expect our brain to work ultimately, instead it will malfunction and an imbalance will set forth depressive, anxious and abnormal behavior.
Very little is still know about brain function, the science is still in its infancy, however, since the brain is connected to our bodies and our bodies are affected by our environment in many ways, we must conclude that when things are not in balance in our intake, lived experience and chemical interaction, we will see an array of problems showing itself in what psychiatry loves to label as mental illness. In my opinion, when someone has a mental illness, they are just out of balance, therefore, disease sets in.
Without going into a prescribed treatment plan, I will tell you this, that a healthy mind is accomplished first by admitting you have a problem, becoming aware of your out of balance behavior, then by analyzing your life and your intakes. No two people are alike, so this is a personal treatment plan that you have to prescribe and assess. You will need to observe your life as a spectator and find out what is not in alignment, what does not feel good, what is making you ill, what thoughts causes you pain, anxiety, and feelings of helplessness. If you know that there is no true solution for your feelings of helplessness and your wishes or wants are not attainable or normal, then you must reassess and tap into reality, for you will become further entrapped in the abyss and your depression will worsen, as seen with many in the trans community whom even after full transition, continue to experience feelings of helplessness, depression and even have suicidal ideation. Synthetic hormones will increase depression once your honeymoon stage high is over, the pendulum will swing viciously to the other side.
Depression is not that complicated really, and in my opinion, can be solved by natural means. If you are on medication, can you actually say that your depression has improved and are you free from side effects from this said medication, you need to assess your situation and research all the natural types of treatments out there.

Here is our Thursday Show, towards the end of our podcast we talk about some solutions to depression.